Sometimes it Just Feels Like There is No Silver Lining

I have will attempt to make this post as neutral as possible as anything too depressing people don’t wish to read, and to be honest sometimes there is no way to take news and make it positive.  In fact sometimes there is no way to phrase news in a positive or uplifting manner.  While I attempt to avoid brining my personal life in as much as I can , sometimes however you simply can’t avoid doing so.  This particular news has hit me hard at a time when we should be thankful and coming together with family.

To start with my family this Thanksgiving won’t be a family.  My sisters will both be off living their own lives, my step-dad will be up with his daughter and her family.  That leaves me and my Mom to fend for ourselves for the holiday.  This is good news for my followers on Twitch as it is very likely that I will be casting on said day.

Already I can tell where my Christmas is headed, and it is similar story.  For the first time for the big Family holidays my family will be more or less apart.  Its something that is difficult for me since I have long believed them to be times of togetherness and family, and the encroaching of merchants (i.e. Black Friday) has been long unwelcome.  For the first time I feel as if I’m cut off from people.

My family right now is looking at more or less an emergency move so we can hopefully continue to afford luxuries such as “Internet”, “Heat”, and “Running Water” (the first of which being the major luxury in that list).  This means that the upcoming holidays will be tight, and my birthday, as per normal, will be ignored.

I hope that people who read this post, and follow me on sites such as Twitter, and Twitch.tv can forgive me if I am not as chipper as I normally am.  Between everything above, filing for bankruptcy, and being unemployed for as long as I have, this truly feels like it may be a Blue Christmas.